Apr/May 2017 Poetry |
Photographic image © 2017 Stuart Gelzer
Doug's Boots
His closet is filled with shirts
and coats whose pocketshold scraps from his wanderings
through wildflower fields—dry pods that rattle
when I shake them,crumbs of seeds, fluted stems,
—the closet permeatedwith the scents of coyote mint
and bee balm, whose leaveswe brewed in tea.
In the closet I breathe himagain. There is a hint
of tobacco, his pipein a vest, as always
within easy reach.The phone's ringing
can't stir me to leave.I do not wish to see friends.
How I hate the sentences"I'm sorry for your loss;
if there's anything I can do to help..."I do not want to start
a new life, to "moveforward." I want to stand
in this small space forever.Because I can't,
I have placed Doug's boots,worn, as haggard as I am,
by our bed—as if waitingto be stepped
into.