Oct/Nov 2022  •   Poetry  •   Special Feature

I'd Tell You What I Said but I'm Not Sure You Want to Hear It

by Gretchen Rockwell

Organic mixed media artwork by Kay Sexton

Organic mixed media artwork by Kay Sexton


I'd Tell You What I Said but I'm Not Sure You Want to Hear It

The diaphanous wings of a dragonfly
can be moved independently, rather than as pairs.
The number four is significant: four wings,
four styles of flight, four ways of lift. I have,
for some reason, always feared that number.
It feels unlucky. My confession, for this reason,
takes more words. They hang in space between us,
hovering; I cannot take them back. They come at a cost—
but I can't tell who will pay it. When dragonflies mate,
it is precise and choreographed. I cannot control how
my words will be received, nor how our careful dance
will change as we move forward. Even as a poet, I cannot
match the ruthless efficiency of a dragonfly as it hunts:
nothing wasted or out of place. Perhaps this makes me
a failure. Dragonflies inspire art, poetry, technology.
We grasp for ephemeral things, trying to capture them
so they can be understood and loved. Please, just listen.