Apr/May 2021  •   Poetry  •   Special Feature

The Wages of Estrangement

by Emily Rose Miller

Artwork by Art AI Gallery

Artwork by Art AI Gallery


The Wages of Estrangement

In a rural                                  Southern town                                     I felt unwelcome

 

 

 

and alone.                                I fit the way                             a queer woman fits

 

 

 

in a hometown church:                        beloved anomaly,                    forgiven and accepted

 

 

 

when she sits, hides                            in Romans                               chapter 6, verse 23.

 

 

 

When I left I shifted / east to stand / in the City Beautiful, / community less so / amidst so much / sickness and unknowing. / I wanted to find the love / of a metropolis, / the utter belonging / of those like me / and like me / and like me / and like me / and like me. / But I found more / alienation, less held / and more holding / it in so the dirty / looks stop. I asked / my partner how / we find our congregation / our lasting place / and he said maybe / we have to leave / the South. / But how do you cleave / sinew / from the / bone? / If I leave, / the South / does not / leave me.