Rock art by Tim Christensen
RATSTAR
I let the baby I'm watching
put the loose lizard tail
between her lips and suckout the drop of blood
probably tastes sour so
she shoots it back downa sidewalk comet to the dead
ants she crushed with her toes
that stink the way dead ants stinkI scoop her up and we walk
her belly is warm with food and I
imagine how it would feelto squeeze her into myself
to birth her out violet again and then hold
her like this over the barn bridgeshe is trying to whistle I think
and I point at leaves and call
each one a star she calls them ratswe laugh and I pet her eyelashes
til I get one for a wish
she pulls at my hair as we reachthe barbed wire push
near the way-way back
where the fallow fieldsare stripped and the old
silo stands tall and red
it's the one where we takethe dying sows before they
croak wheezing and fat
they step over their dead mothers'carcasses before they drop
and get folded under shallow
moss like quiet sleeping logsthe baby laughs when I tell
her this story and she is pointing
at everything and calling it arat like: tree-rat, flower-rat,
truck-rat, me-rat, pebble-rat
and we reach the best firits needles a rusting of the sun
high up I once saw a branch
in the shape of a heart andI swear it was blood and feathered
maybe I didn't but I set the girl
down anyways and climb to thefirst limb and wave down at her
she is small, small enough to be
crushed if I stomped her hardwith my bare feet under this tree but I don't
see the heart branch and so we leave
retracing the line we made in the dirtI eye the silo and tell the baby to listen
for a broken bleating an oink-like sound
we don't hear anything but slow slaps of chopsand when we return I set her on the country
lawn and teach her the word lemonade
le-mo-nade like juiced le-mons for usas I pick the grasses and let slips of them
flutter back to the earth before they drop
she falls over when she tries to standand I let her bruise her face on the
hidden rocks of the ground and wail
until she is violet